Long Hair Don't Care... or maybe not?

I have always worn my hair short.

I am one of those women who cannot stand to have hair laying on my shoulders- it must be above or below shoulder length.

When I lived in MS I always knew which stylist to see.  I was never a guinea pig- meaning I never tried a stylist first.  My mom always did that for me.  She would go and try someone- be the guinea pig- and if it turned out dazzling, I would then go. Perfect set up, right?

Well, I moved away from MS. It took me an extremely long time to find someone to cut my hair once I moved to Utah.  So long in fact that my hair grew past my shoulders! I pushed through the annoying period of growth because:

A. we had just moved and I was short on time and babysitters
B. It was up to ME to find a new stylist

I finally did research and after a year (I know, crazy...) I found a girl to cut my hair. I braved the guinea pig moment and got my hair cut! It wasn't so bad, she did a great job! Success!!

Then... I moved again. Except this time I only moved an hour away. But, that was still an hour away, so I found myself needing to find another stylist. Yes, it took another year for me to research and find another. I had success again and enjoyed my experience at this darling place in Provo, Utah.

And as the story goes, you guessed it.... I moved again shortly after. Now, we live in Missouri and it has been nearly 2 years since I have gotten a hair cut! ("holy moly!" ...I know that's what you are thinking!)  My hair is the longest it has ever been.

Let me take a moment and say that within these past 2 years I have gotten it trimmed! I went back home almost 6 months ago, and during my time there I saw my awesome long-time high school friend who gave me a TRIM.

Now- I have never been to a stylist for a TRIM. Ever. I am brave and bold. I get my hair CUT- usually chopped off because I do not like my hair to rest on shoulders.

What has happened?

I have long-hair-loss anxiety.  You know those girls who refuse and even balk at the very thought of getting their long locks cut off? You know those girls who are just plain scared to take the short hair plunge? They are so annoying...

I have never understood those crazies.
Those crazy girls.... to them I used to say, "I don't get it.  Just do it!"

Now, I know.
Now, I understand.
I have long hair now....

I have discovered how fun it is to have long hair! I can have those long curls, I can throw it up in a pony tail, I can check our weird braid tutorials and experiment, etc.

 There is this tiny part of me that says, "but Heather, remember your short hair? Remember how much you loved it? Be brave! Be Bold!"

Those thoughts lead me to searching for a stylist who knows her stuff--- I need one that can chop my hair off and dazzle me with her skills! Then BAM! long-hair-loss anxiety sets in!

I can't cut it off. Look how long it is? Will I miss it? Will I ever grow it out again? It took so much work to get it this way. I can't do it. AH! I'm having a near panic attack!

Hello crazies, I am now one of you now. Help?